Crazy is as Crazy do

I have been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of playing and a lot of working - hence, no new posts. I really need to get some more sleep, and today, I need a pedicure - so I think I'm headed there in a few mins.
There is part of me that is a really REALLY bad control freak - I need to know what will happen, at least a little bit, in my future. I want to know at least somewhat how things will go and plan based off of that. I have a hard very hard very very hard time letting go, letting the Lord take the reins and run the show. My life has been very blessed every time I choose to let Him lead my path and literally take my lame feet and walk them for me to the place they need to go. Most things in our family/life are really really good right now, but certain things recently learned about my health have made me reconsider everything: Schooling, My career, Jared's career path, Moving, etc. I really really truly don't know what to do, and I have to make very hard decisions.
I am not quite sure why I feel so alone, I think it is because I don't know how to communicate this worry and leave it with God. I feel all-encompassing panic a few times a day, and just simply turn that part of my mind off to move to other matters... work, sleepovers, going to provo - seeing a fun movie.
I think this is a good trick for survival under stress, although I wonder if it will last, and how it will all break down suddenly.
On Sunday much of my family will be fasting for me and my health. Jared's too. If anyone would like to pray for me and fast this Sunday with them, I need it. If for nothing else, to be sound of mind and learn all that I need to learn to make a good decision about managing my health care.

Immunosuppressants

I don't know what I should do. I want to have babies soon.

Getting Better All the Time

I am not eating anything today. Well, I get to eat jello. Green Jello. Tomorrow morning will be my second colonoscopy of a many many more, I suppose. I am praying to understand my body better. I want to heal what is happening, but that's impossible. Sometimes it is hard to think about having this my whole life... taking this many meds, feeling bad so often...

In other news, I love my family and I will miss them now that I got a few little games of nerts and monopoly in. We don't have tons to do at our apartment, but we played a lot of lumines, a great game that is just like tetris.

I really needed to be around people that already know me and love me and get me. Sometimes it's really important to have that for a little while.

Cut Copy

Every time I listen to them, I renew my love. Why and HOW can Cut copy be so amazing? They just keep reinventing their sound and coming up with something just as good.
Anyone? Anyone agree?

Writing a love story

I have recently been thinking of writing a story of love about my husband and I. They will be a small series of children-story type books that are easy, simple and naive in their approach. The illustrations should match that writing style, but they will encompass perhaps one or two small memories in each book. I think it's going really well, I have the first one pretty much written, and I haven't started thinking of the visuals yet, but this was inspiring in that it reminded me of my project and how beautiful it could be -- perhaps a great way to teach our children what our love is, and what love can be like : )

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New programs, new life

I feel invigorated by the fact that I'm learning new types of design and design thinking. I am enjoying learning this prototyping program called axure - so intuitive and useful for presenting interaction design concepts to clients and stakeholders for various projects - even at the flowchart stage : )
Check it out - axure.com

Pinterest

Does anyone else see pinterest as just another sick ploy to get us to not work while at work? I sincerely can get addicted to things like facebook, gchat, pinterest and blogging if I'm not too busy at work, and so - adieu. to you, and you, and yeu.

So cute, and I love giraffes

I love this! http://www.buenothebear.com/

Conversation

I have to make a concession - I am a jealous person. I get jealous of my husband's attention. He gives it to soccer and the internet and homework. I lure him away though. I am jealous of my sister's attention, and my mom's. I am weird about my husband talking to his ex gf. Even though she and he don't have any feelings for one another. I wonder why that is. I wonder why I'm worried and jealous about these people.
I have another concession. I am getting fat...er than I usually am. I really don't have any pants that aren't too tight. But I REFUSE to buy new ones that fit better.
It has been really fun to have Janna in town - we didn't do anything cool, just watched harry potter and Bridget Jones' Diary and ate so much food. Made cookie dough, played 2 games of monopoly last night. We are best friends, and I hope it always stays that way.

Also, does anything taste better than strawberries dipped in sugar?

Update on the garden

I will be starting our food blog shortly, as soon as I get a new camera from costco, because the other one just broke one day - but until then, I have to just say the BEANS!! They are growing so fast and so tall! I am very VERY excited to cook and to harvest.

More to come!

In other news.... I told the landlord about our pothead downstairs, he said he would talk to him, but he's moving out at the end of the month! Anyone want to live downstairs!!! It's only 600 dollars including utilities!!!!

Because I have to be an information Design Junkie

Here is the sweetest, easiest and most fun way I can think of being on a diet/obsessing about my food. What I eat, how much, how bad it is for me, etc.

Publish Post

MAKE A CHART!

Also, please check out these 40 visualizations of food eaten, via datavisualization.ch

keeping cool

Our apartment is above another apartment in this fourplex made of an old, 1929 house. It is beautiful and we love it, and love making it beautiful. We have a problem, however. In the apartment below, there is a pothead who I have asked nicely not to smoke in the house - we share air vents. In Utah it has been raining a lot in the past few weeks - which is really strange, so it's been cool. But NOW, now it is finally hot in Salt Lake, and we want to use our much-needed and covetable air-conditioning.
The switch for the air conditioner lies within the pothead's apartment, and lately, his new thing is to tell me that it's on, and then turn it off so he can smoke and it doesn't come up through the vents. Jared realized this last night, as he had to rig up some sort of air ventilation circuit with our fans... we both smelled the smoke, even without the fan running from downstairs and quickly realized this must have been his plan. Is it time for me to take actions into my own hands? I don't want to be the bad guy - I didn't want to tattle to the landlord....but shouldn't I call him?
Why must we dwell in the skunkweed smelling putrescence of this guy with a long goatee?
In other news, I was thinking of fans when I found this beauty - too bad it's like 150€ just to get it sent here. Too pricey for my pocketbook. but if you want it - go here.

hmmm.

I Start to actually blog.

I dive in today -
So i found this photo and it's killing me Event Design by The Parsonage - best use of chinese lanterns that I've ever seen. I have been obsessing about wedding design and event design since my own wedding last August which was featured in Real weddings on projectwedding.com.