Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

if i

had a million dollars
was kinder
was milder
was more likely to listen
talked less
thought deeper
was more disciplined
laughed more
cried more
smiled all the time
was more creative
was more pensive
was more spontaneous
was less judgemental
was courageously friendly
let my guard down

I would be a
better friend
writer
painter
graduate
missionary
wife?
lawyer
girlfriend
mom?
vegan
restaurant owner
cook
.
thank you for now. that's all i've got to pine over. and goodnight.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

fjfjfjfjfjfjfjfjfj

I don't know what it is, but this summer is all about nostalgia for me. I am feeling like I remember people and places and summer activities from days gone by and it makes me happy for a moment and leaves me with a weird empty feeling. I need to fill that void with gratitude, because summer hikes and bakini bikerides and moonlit walks and talks and friends and kisses...they aren't over. I don't know though, it always feels overwhelming to think i should "live life as if today is the last day of my life".

Monday, June 1, 2009

spider, dead.

it's okay to be sad sometimes. that's all part of life. i killed a spider on the wall tonight while separating the songs for the ward choir i lead. i wadded up a pile of "for the beauty of the earth" and squashed him dead. funny.

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