Friday, May 29, 2009

I love this band

Famous for 60's motown during the early 70's. they didn't get as big as they should have.....

Monday, May 25, 2009

What can I even say about today??

I learn so many things every day and I am ungrateful because I don't write them or think of them enough. It is so ungrateful. I take advantage of the gift that life is. I believe that today I learned to be more okay with who I am. I learned that everyone needs people. I learned that to love you need to be willing to be loved. I learned that hope doesn't come from us, but is a gift of God. I learned that to be strong you must see you are weak. And that prayers for yourself are much less effective than those offered by others, on your behalf.

Thank you, thank you for this day.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Making myself one, for once.

Readings make me think a lot when they are good. A recent funeral made my family members vulnerable enough to be honest and real with one another. The necessary respect that comes from truly needing someone and honestly asking them to be there because you trust them is something so beautiful. One would imagine this impossible in a family of strong wills. But miracles happen, even in tragic small airplane accidents.
There were tears in my eyes when the airmen who did fly-bys at johnny's wedding waved their wings at us, even though johnny himself was probably laughing at all of us for crying at his funeral.
What about family is so necessary to me, anyway? I realize lately that being my own best friend doesn't mean being completely individualistic and, therefore egotistic. I know how connected I am to other things and people. Everything is connected. Everything is beautiful. A rock or a flower. I need to be my own best friend and treat life as a thing that I don't control but that I live. I am thus more at peace and less at odds with the things that happen in it. Looking beyond the preconceived notions that have allowed me to make sense of things in the past. Or rather looking before them.
Imagine if you can just open a door, you will see an answer to a very important and vexing problem that is plaguing your consciousness. But all you really have to do is stop just before you open the door, and think about the feeling of discovery, the reason you are at the door and know that is the true answer you seek. The inbetween of your conscious thinking.


ps. yes
I seriously love these things lately:
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- Driving with the windows down listening to the temptations really loud
- Riding my bike really really far
- Swimming really really fast in my swimming cap
- Reading books late into the night or outside anywhere i can find a place to sit in the sun.
- Listening to songs that remind me of summer specifically
- Paying summer visits
- Making summertime lists.
- Dreaming of strange things: latest--I woke up after dreaming I was in a triathalon, and really wanted to do a triathalon so bad
- Making goals of who i want to be friends with and fulfilling my goals!
- Reading the words of modern-day prophets and eastern spiritual philosophers
- Doing ZUMBA - I WISH I COULD EVERY DAY.
- The Orem Public Library
- Vampires.
- Horror Films.
- Dancing--I will always love dancing forever....
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------------------------>Thank you SUMMER!


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